song plan....

i have been trying to write on more vast topics lately..

topics in which i have to put my self into the imaginative shoes 

of a scenario in order to some out with new stuffs..

my imagination is fading day after day..

like a gust of wind, i blew her away..

now she's free and flew from me

no more chances for me to say...

like how we cant change "yesterday"...

i found back my interest in writing crap again.

i found back the fun in doing so

realizing that they are a form of recording device..

that can tell what i was thinking everyday... 

i wish to create a new song to play.

love sarcasm.

Taking my leave 
i hoped you'll say something,

at least ask me where i'm going,

then i would explain my reason of leaving

you...

The 3 years has thought me

to understand the truth,

of one thing after all we've been through...

i wasn't good enough for you

it seems that you didn't care too.. 

the fault was mine, here's a few;

i'm sorry for being, over protective.

i'm sorry for loving you too much,

i'm sorry that i was the only one loving

i'm sorry, i forced you to have me crushed.

i'm sorry to call you when i was feeling down

i'm sorry for giving you more than i could spend,

i'm sorry that all this time it was only me,

i'm sorry that all this time you have to pretend!

i hope that you can find a better person,

to care and provide more than I,

hope you'll recover well  from those wounds

 forget how bad a choice, that i was for you..

it seems that you didn't care too.. 

let me tell you, in which i knew;

i'm sorry for being, over protective.

i'm sorry for loving you too much,

i'm sorry that i was the only one loving

i'm sorry that it was me that's being crushed

i'm sorry that i've been looked down by your friends,

i'm sorry for living my life just for you,

i'm sorry that all this time it was only me,

i'm sorry for knowing you in this life..

i will always remember how nice you were to me,

guess it's hard to find another girl like you..

let this be the final words from me..

you are more than i can ever see.

black and white rainbow

once the rainbow,
was black and white,
showing itself day and night,
but not once appreciated upon sight.

a kid went by,
as the rainbow appear,
without showing sign of fear,
paddling his tricycle near and near..

what brings him here?
the rainbow thought in fear,
never before a person came near,
little he knew that the boy was sitting on the rear.

"rainbow oh rainbow,
i like your stripes,
rainbow oh rainbow,
i waited night after night."

being offered such kindred words,
the rainbow cant believe what he heard,
something too nice that he cant believe,
but yet he wished the boy wont leave..

"why hast thou reckon me in beauty?"
have you not see the colors in me?
the dull black and white is 'ugly'.
as you sure i deserve your envy?"

Looking up and baring his teeth,
a few was gone from the underneath,
but yet the rainbow recognized it,
It was a pure smile given as a gift.

the rainbow wonders deeper in thought,
figuring the reason he was not being ignored,
little that he knew that the boy felt bored,
beneath the rainbow he laid down and snored.

a sudden rush or warmth arise,
the rainbow felt this for the very first time,
couldn't process the feeling inside,
he just froze with the boy in sight.

He felt protective and useful once more,
its existence was never appreciated before,
this made the rainbow opened a door,
to accept his own beauty with great awe.

As the moment the rainbow accepted,
the inner beauty burst out cluttered,
from within it grew as the rainbow is colored,
with the beauty of seven different wonders..

none is alone in this world we live,
only those that have faith deep beneath,
will be able to live happily with it,
glowing with inner beauty that was lit.

another creation

here's another video i made while learning new things in Pinnacle studio 14 HD,
i think slowly i can refine my film editing skills with this new software.

Orange peeling

one with a dozen,
a dozen for one.
I ate 12 oranges today,
different oranges in a same way.

The first was sweet,
yet too hard to peel,
like training my feet,
to walk and feel.

From the 2nd to 5th,
i slowly progress,
chewing with my teeth,
i felt i had the best.

Sudden 6th felt a lil' sour,
'Frown' formed at my first encounter,
yet i thought it'll all get better,
unknowingly i ventured deeper...



7th and 8th i peeled faster,
without effort i reached within,
yet they weren't getting any better,
from pleasure it became repeated routine.

Forcing fingers to reach 9th,
closing an eye i took the knife,
much was rumbled now in mind,
could oranges represent my life?

10th and 11th tasted bitter,
was it oranges or grapefruit i wonder?
why bother asking when the end was near?
i never thought that the truth will clear...

The final 12th i held tall,
afraid to find a taste too strong.
yet courage sliced it and shared with all ,
surprizingly "sweet!!" the others sang along~

recently

i had been writing a lot,
making note of every sense,
trying to bring life with my pen.

i try to make them into songs,
yet the rhythm i always forget,
at least i got the words recorded,
reminding the thoughts my mind once had.

i also did a few sketches,

filling my sick days spent in bed,

i think music is slowly growing in me,
as i am now allowed to express freely,

walk with me

Why do we cry?
human were meant to die,
the moment we receive life.
we must live and not 'try'..

Throw down those burdens,
and live for the moment.
As long as we aren't regretting,
the paths we've taken

walk with me~~
I'll bring you along my journey~~

we have and we had,
i just want you to know,
they are everything we can let go.
without the sun, our hearts still glow!

walk with me~~
I'll let you free~~


Let us not stay frozen in our past,
life is not something that will last,
just like those beautiful fireworks,
that leaves us aghast...

walk with me~~
can you?....