1986 - ? :-)

Family and friends, here i'll announce.
every seconds thats passed, kept count..
already i could feel the breeze on my face
ready as i am if the tide takes place.

today or tomorrow, i'll never be sure..
or maybe on summer of the year after..

luck shown how bitter comes after sweet.
of course there was sourness too.
Very few in which i loved, and yet..
everyone of them, too precious to forget.

As now i hope for their "hopes" to succeed,
goodness will go to those which are freed,
away from ties, bounded by their very fists..
inevitable from receiving wounds from the beast,
nesting in their very own hearts of defeat..
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everyday i hear stories of another land,

from the mouth of a special friend,

never once i stop my pretend,

for i know she want to visit that land.

her cries of tear i listened,

the laughter from her i made,

though deep inside he's broken..

that's all he could do in his state.

day by night the light isn't bright..

imagine holding that pain inside..

to listen about that land you sought..

just wished it was here... my side.

in her eyes,

i see pain covered in laughter,
her gaze was still and watery,
hard, as she struggles to speak,
harder, it becomes for her to sleep.


in her eyes,
a glitter of light shone pass a second,
an immediate glimmer of pain-emit,
hoping for me to defeat,
the pain that held her a millionth week..


as i try,
my heart wanted to move my lips..
to form words of sense to ease your weeps.
yet too frail it was to even lift...
the power for my lips..too weak to speak..


in her eyes,
i see strength, i see kindness.
i see myself, i see unworthiness..
i see her tears, i see blindness..
i see a heart, i see ............................

into the sky

felt the wind on my face,
as your wings flapped by,
a comfort swept through me,
when you disappear into the horizon.

fly~take your journey up,
deep into the sky~
don't you even think of, giving up~
we were meant to fall,
so we could learn one day..
to stand tall~~

but beware of the clouds,
tempting as they can be,
just remember your limits..
as you.....

fly~take your journey up,
deep in the sky~
don't get over exited, over your head,
if you fall from the clouds..
even screaming out loud...
it'll be too late.

plated in thin-glass

Maybe i pay too much attention of my surroundings,
that sometimes i think too much, complicate simple matters.
I am so "thoughtful" that instead of responding towards an issue,
I ended up taking too much time, judging those few miserably logic response which i have in mind.
not once, not twice.. but most of the time.
I waste not only those pathetic ticks on my clock, but i dragged the precious time spent by those who waited for me.
Thanks for all your patience as well as time spent on me~ although deep down inside you all knew that i wasn't worth it. Sorry for all the disappointments that i have given you all.. words that i used in hurting all of you, remind me with a slap the next time we meet.

I am not a depressing person, nor a drama ass-king. i am just who i am, a normal person, trying to make some sense by conversing with himself. I doubt that there would be any readers nor followers of these crap that i write.
Writing them  somehow, eases the emotional fluctuation that i face~ every now and then.

things they say as we met:

"i can't recognize you"
"i thought for a moment there, you look familiar."
"Is it really you William?"
"oh my god~! Willl~!!!"
"William Koong? you're William rite?"
"Gosh, if you bald you head again i might recognize you better man~!"

recently i have been getting a lot of these responses wherever i see my friends..after being MIA for a month or two~ i didn't see any obvious change in me, but somehow they all say i look different, better i hope.. and surprisingly someone even told me that i feel different.....how is that so? i do not know..just go with the flow..lol
did i really change that much? am i that different already? nah.... i'm still an idiot.

the Out-of-Reach's preach

i'm not interesting~ i'm boring,

i'm not fun~i'm lame,

i'm not good looking~i'm fugly,

i'm not smart~i'm dumb, 

i'm not romantic~i'm dull, 

i'm not appreciated~i'm a disappointment,

i'm not perfect~i'm flawed,

i'm not the one~i'm the other one. 

*i'm not hiding~i'm healing*

 *keep breathing~keep believing*

 *i'm not hoping~i'm accepting*