it would have been nice

but since it's no longer my responsibility to make it,

i could not bother more, 

just staring back at plans i once made,

that would have been nice. :-)

“I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ.” mahatma gandhi

sorry, but who are you again? Don't think i know you anymore..

funny things come is weird ways

funny it seems that after the 48 hour film project that i was involve in, i found a heart there. I found my love for the production of short films as well as being able to get together in a group of people, discussing, giving input, reviewing and accepting each others ideas..

the fun and enjoyable times i had for the past weekend is over whelming. we all worked hard on the whole production and give it our very best in making something, creating something, giving birth to something  within the short time span of 48 hours~!!! -THAT- is actually quite impressive, if you ask me about it.

this saturday will be the screening of our film in ASWARA hall, and we are all very nervous as the results for the winners will be anounced at that time as well...i personally do not hope for any awards while joining this competition, i somehow had my fill of satisfaction during the film production process, yeah... i'm easily satisfied by it.. i love making films, literally -making- .

am i that strong?

am i really that strong? i doubt the fact that i am, some may look and perceive me other wise.. but what am i to say in changing the thoughts of others? haha

had this really nostalgic dream that never came to me for a long time.. i used to enjoy the imaginary world that my subconscious mind painted, but this time i jolted up as though a thousand volts ran through me. Bathed in both; cold sweat and frustration, i could do no less than to turn the lights on, sitting on the cold floor, and trying to reconnect back to reality.

felt like leaving this place.. yes it does. this is one of those rare occasions where my mind fought back, the fictional lucid reality of it's subconscious side. It sucks, so much that i cant even stand lying to myself, HAHAhaha... or am i slowly loosing it? nah.. who cares, right?

i am the successful joker, the lame entertainer, the irresponsible partner, the notorious brother, the idiotic driver and the unwanted lover. :-) life is a bliss~~ when we rest in peace~~

drown by limpbizkit

It's getting closer to the end

Every part of me

And then disaster takes it's toll

And now I'm left with only me

Maybe sorrow plays a role

When you feel unkind

Your abuses will let her stand in a line

Forever lost in time

Save me, save me

Before I drown

Save me, save me

Before I drown

It's getting closer to the end

I look back and smile

We conquered every single bump in my road

Made it all worth while

Just remember how I cared

When it came crashing down

I'd like to toast to all those

Angels that were always hangin' 'round

Save me, save me

Before I drown

Save me, save me

Before I drown, drown, oh, oh

Maybe life ain't what it seems

'Cause it's all a dream, forgive me

Sometimes I feel like a fool

'Cause I'm so uncool, forgive me

thanks for the memories.

"what if?" i learnt a lot from this question. 

"what isn't?"  i realized a lot from this question.